austin’s song

I

I have no wit about me, I have no yawp to shout

My cry has turned to ashes, my cowardice found out

Salt pillars lie before me of that which does not trust,

And the love I have within me I sacrifice to lust

My resting, it is fitful, and working is a thief

My body speaks of days gone by, and won’t give me no peace

Cold sandpaper hollow blows its cutting wind

And all the truth of daybreak my wearied hands rescind.

My heart’s known loss and hope / and my hand’s reached for desperate rope

Though I know I’m not there yet / sunrise teach my soul to care

II

Thought I knew what love was, thought it was something I could touch

But the gems I held in my hand didn’t earn me much

Turns out the best planning is not to plan at all,

And every risk worth taking could lead you just to fall.

My timing always off, my pining never heard

Until the day it’s too late, and hardest lessons learned.

Now you’re married in Virginia and I’m back here alone

I walk these lighted streets with shadowed dreams to roam.

My heart’s known loss and hope / and my hand’s reached for desperate rope

Though I know I’m not there yet / sunrise teach my soul to care

III

The dawning of potential was something to behold,

Your wings were tasting sunlight after a past of so much cold.

But chaos fell around you and took you from us all,

And the providence of this plan, I can’t begin to call.

Your light, it started shining, your eyes began to hope,

What was hidden inside had just begun to grow,

But the Lord, He had a different way for you to go,

And the man you were becoming we’d never get to know.

My heart’s known loss and hope / and my hand’s reached for desperate rope

Though I know I’m not there yet / sunrise teach my soul to care