can’t you love someone else?

Oh Lord
Hold me even when
I hate your grip

And stubborn I wail
Against your gentle
Finality

And scuff my toes,
Kicking holes in your walls

Bitter and entitled
I writhe in your hand
Wicked and slipping

And why do you love
A heart like mine
Anyway?

Cant you love someone else,
Anyone else?
Someone better than me,
Someone who loves you better,
Someone who shares you better,
Who wants to be here more than I do
Sometimes.

I'm looking out the window
And wanting something out in the wind
That I don't have here where
Things are right
And just where
You are.
In your hand,
Where I am.